Being a femme fatale

When I was about 13 I promised to myself that once I will become a femme fatale. That I am way too good and that I definitelly can have ANY man that I want. After a couple a years later, I have found out that actually I really became what I had planned. My question is - is that really an advantage?
I mean, I can be visually, mentally and also physically perfect whenever I want to, but is that really what I need? I was wondering, if men are not going to be scared of my perfection, but apparently I have also a talent for playing so it come true and I did just realize I am able to have any of men from my current surrinding. (Except of one - my ex, but that is acceptible or at least understandable, I hope.)
At first, don't take me as a selfish person please. I just know my pluses and minuses as well.
And second - being a femme fatale did not appear to be an advantage in the end.
I realized, the sooner the man falls for me, the more time I need to fall for him and the sooner I feel an urgent need to quit. Even without having a sex. And I know I might have had a lot of great sex experience there. However I just did not need it, or at least did not want it.
So, what now? What is left? What are my current goals, when I finally hit my peak, let's say?
Of course, for me it is natural and always used to be natural to want the only thing in the world that I just could not have at the moment, so I would expect me wanting my exboyfriend back.
The truth is, I do want him back, but knowing this fact and fully accepting is just makes me more placid about the whole thing. Maybe it is also due to fact, that I am recently facing another problem.
I was recommended by my best friend to try dating an older guy or a foreigner. So thanks to my femme-fatale characteristic I've got it both in one and I am recently dating an older foreign man. I've expected him to be really experienced, or at least more experienced than me, because to tell the truth, I did not have many sexual partners and still, I know what is good or bad. I have no doubt, that I have not experienced the best, or at least that is what I hope for. However, this older-foreign man has one more specific feature about him. He is not only older, well behaving and foreign, but he is also a bad kisser. Those are the worst, it is said. And I truly understand - how can anybody can be good in bed when he or she is even not good in kissing? Or is it only my thing to care that much about kissing? So, now I am facing a difficult question, because, to be a little bit selfish for myself, it still has got some advantages - I feel comfortable with him like I haven't from my last broke up nearly a half a year ago, he really makes me laugh and for whats more - I at least practise my language skills. Nevertheless, he unfortunatelly does not practise his (mother) tongue as well.
So, let's see what it will be like after the next date, or if there is going to be any, because he fell for me so quickly, that I am starting to feel those urgent needs for quitting. Let's see, I say.